The biggest question I get from people when they find out that my husband and my son are police officers is always one of these two questions:
- “Doesn’t his job scare you to death?”
- “Don’t you worry about him all the time?”
Well, I’m going to tell you the truth…because you know I write the truth!
The answer is YES.
If you’ve read my blog or if you know me, you know the answer is YES because I’m a time-traveler. I do worry about them but when I’m worrying it’s always because I’m time-traveling. And I try to get off that time-travel-train as soon as I realize I’m on it.
But strangely enough, when people ask me those questions, the answer more often than not is NO. I really am not consumed with worry out their profession and never have been. Not when I was 20 and newly married to a police officer and not now that I’m 59 and the mother of a SWAT officer.
I would love to say something really wise here that would make total sense to you and then I would become famous for helping police wives everywhere. I wish I had a catchy 12-step program for fighting fear. Or, a miraculous story to tell about becoming fearless. I don’t have any of that. What I do have are three basic tenets of faith. These beliefs have allowed me to cope with police life without being paralyzed by fear.
First, I believe people are “called” into service. Some are called into the ministry. Some are called to be teachers. Some are called to be nurses. Some are called to be police officers. They can’t be anything else. They were made to do a specific job and they will not be happy doing anything else. I decided as soon as we got engaged that I would never stand in the way of his calling.
Secondly, I believe in God’s protection. I believe God will provide a “hedge of protection” around my guys. He called them and He will protect them. I do not need to worry about them. My faith is bigger than my fear.
Finally, I believe God has a plan for our lives. I believe He created me and has always had a perfect plan for my life. He knew me before I was formed. He knew I would be the perfect wife for my police husband and the almost perfect police mom. I have no clue what the future holds and don’t want to know. God knows and I am OK with that.
Because, my faith is bigger than my fear.